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Tue Jan 31, 2006, 1:09 AM
Anything good that happens to me seems to last for just hours and then everything crashes again.

I'm so sick of how inconsistant my life is lately, it feels like so many things are going wrong. Oh and school starts tomorrow...

Two days ago I thought I had entered a relationship on a different or higher level than my last one. It was short, intimate, exciting - but it ended last night. I'm getting so tired of being rejected or having to deal with staying 'just friends'. I always wish for a bit more than that, but even if it reaches something higher than just friendship it's only very brief. Then I'm brought back down to a state worse than I was in before it all happened.

I keep trying to knock back any hope, so I don't get so disapointed, but it's impossible. I don't feel like I can get used to teenage relationships. Everyone's experienced something different and so have different opinions on how far something is, or how much it means. I find it so hard to work with people when the feelings aren't mutual. But hey it probably isn't going to change when I've grown up and I'm surrounded by adults either.


Ugh.

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~buttonmouse:iconbuttonmouse: Jan 31, 2006, 2:12:41 AM
*hug* According to the people I've talked to, it gets harder when you're older, because you don't just have all those people arround you.

I must agree though, teenage relationships just don't seem worth having at the moment. I'm all for going back to 1975 and getting with Tim Curry *swoon*.

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Kiss me once in the snow,
I swear it never gets old,
And I will promise you,
I can make it warmer next year.
~Spike-Salute:iconSpike-Salute: Jan 31, 2006, 2:19:01 AM
get back up on your horse girl. (no, not smack. sheesh)
although this comment doesnt make it seem like it,
i did read that
and i did understand.
and now,
i'm giving you virtual hugs.
as cold and distant as that sounds.
hope you are okay.
ps.
You are very pretty. Act like you are better than everyone else, because you are.
~Rabbit-2004:iconRabbit-2004: Jan 31, 2006, 3:11:35 AM
"I'm getting so tired of being rejected or having to deal with staying 'just friends'. I always wish for a bit more than that, but even if it reaches something higher than just friendship it's only very brief. Then I'm brought back down to a state worse than I was in before it all happened."

Ditto.

i gave up trying to be with people, and yes i'm young, but it's more lonesome without someone. so depending on how you cope being alone, then i wouldn't advise it. i guess just keep trying, and don't get too attached too soon, that's the easiest way to fall down.

:heart:

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♥ Amy
~daluxe:icondaluxe: Jan 31, 2006, 3:24:48 AM
:hug:

I know this...

I'm feeling the same....

Don't give up

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You laugh at me, bcause I'm different.
I laugh at you, because you're all the same.
~CrimsonEuthanasia:iconCrimsonEuthanasia: Jan 31, 2006, 4:19:08 AM
I felt that way, in highschool I stopped dating completely, besides one relationship, but that was short and fleeting as well. I don't know if I missed out on anything with teenage relationships and there's nothing wrong with holding out untill you feel absolutely ready. I did that. But it's up to you how you feel. I for one and glad I waited, I couldnt be bothered with the let downs because I was far more serious than the others when it came to relationships.

Hope you feel better soon hun. Take care of yourself.
:hug:

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Your self-rightious words burnt sin through skin, bones and hearts. //_________
~Interwizard2001:iconInterwizard2001: Jan 31, 2006, 5:13:57 AM
I know... I just got rather uncerimoniously dumped as well... but you have to understand, we all have our rough patches... for some people those patches can last for a whole year. But you're such an intelligent and talented person, you command a higher quality of male than most girls. So they don't come along to often, that doesn't mean they dont exist.

It will take time. But it will be worth it once you find him.

Or her, if you lean that way. :P
~spiral-staircase:iconspiral-staircase: Jan 31, 2006, 5:37:57 AM
you can't really trust anyone with your feelings.

I know it feels bad, but there's no need to take it to heart so much. you did something fun and cool, and nothing really stays the same for ever. it could have gone a lot of different ways, but now you're single again, free to go wherever you want to.

You might be glad you stayed just friends eventually. If any of my earlier relationships had lasted longer than they did, there's a chance I wouldn't have been there at the formal with iKa. Looking back, I wish I didn't have any of the romantic or sexual relationships I did have at all.

either way, at least you've broken up now, and it didn't take three or whatever years to realise that s/he just wanted to be friends.

:heart:
~Angel-Soul:iconAngel-Soul: Jan 31, 2006, 7:44:50 AM
Awwh. Teenage-ness is so hardd isn't it >_< :hug:

p.s. I love that song <3

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*age-of-innocence:iconage-of-innocence: Jan 31, 2006, 10:21:30 AM
good advice abound here :3 i'm impressed! every person is different; i'm better for my past relationship before the current one i have, even though it lasted all of high school, and i'm glad it ended too. when your world changes, it's better to have the people either change with it or leave it altogether, otherwise they stagnate and things get difficult.

depending on each person, having a few fleeting loves or having none at all in your teenage years may be better. you'll soon find out with how the universe leads you. *huggles* take care darling, these may seem like the longest years of your life, but once you hit your senior year of high school, and then college (if you decide to go) it breezes past you so fast you can barely breathe. enjoy your time as much as possible, and even if it hurts, i know you're going to come out the other end okay anyway. :3 cuz i just believe in you like that.

okay i shush now X3 take care <3

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Lepers coiled 'neath the trees
Dying men in bewildered soliloquies
Perversions bloom round the bend
Seekers lost in their quest
~Meteuro:iconMeteuro: Jan 31, 2006, 2:33:55 PM
This is distressingly accurate.

The key to being happy is, quite often, simply being grateful. What you had was short and sweet and you should look back on it with a melancholy sigh and fondness, not a broken heart. Life is strangely wrong at times, but you don't have to live life in the same way that everyone else does.

You should look for the good and make some fresh starts.

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~Meteuro is ~ThreeKindsofSoftness is ~Meteuro is ~ThreeKindsofSoftness
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